"I feel like I am going to fall"
"I wouldn't let you"
There is something i have noticed about myself in these last couple of weeks.
I am prideful.... me and my friend made a childrens story for ap lit. she pretty much wrote it, the two lines i wrote pretty much ruined the story to her, but i kept it in when i created the final draft. the only reason i even bothered putting an effort into it was so that people would look at the pictures and comment on them. I worked so hard on those freaking pictures that i haven't done my government homework in over a week. I am falling behind and i fear i may be close to failing. I sat here for hours trying to make it perfect. was it fucking worth it?
I am lazy... whenever i decide that i am going to change and be a better person and whatnot. I last a week, maybe two tops... i just don't have the will power to do what i should.
and something else... isn't senior year supposed to be the shit? isn't it supposed to be fun, the year we look back on and smile? isn't it supposed to be a big deal, the last year of our high school career? should i really be this freaked out?